Pretty Wings

I should have showed you better nights, better times, better days...

Pretty Wings by Maxwell is playing in the background. It's one of those songs that rings with me on so many levels. On days like today, I miss Philly a lot. I miss how incredibly happy I was while a student at UPenn. I saw a young lady today who had on a bookbag.. She looked mature, like a UMass grad student. She was walking away from Barnes & Noble-- gave me the thought that she might have been studying moments prior. I know. I put a lot together from a 5 second passing with a random girl, but it all brought me back to Philly, and the first thought I had after she and I crossed paths was that I really want to be a student there again.

I need to be there.

Because here, there is nothing for my heart. I am trying to nourish my spirit, but some days, my heart isn't in it. God knows I am weak. God is protecting me from harm and temptation because he knows I am weak.   I need to change my ways, thinking...  Discipline my heart...

I have been waiting for something to change for so long; Now it's time for me to change things. New clothes. New make-up. New hair. New attitude. New outlook on life. Final step: New Location. Summer 2012 can't come fast enough.